Struggling to be Free, 2005

I never liked the word ‘surrender’, because I thought it was a weakness. In my family, you worked hard, you didn’t complain, you didn’t rest, you just pushed through. There was also something in my brain that thought to become enlightened you had to suffer. I’m not sure if this was past life stuff, or childhood stuff, or came from books I read, but it was very complimentary to the things I learned as a child. As I grew older and learned new things, I realized that suffering was not required; in fact, it was not really helpful at all. Surrendering now means to me that I don’t need to push hard, I don’t need to worry about everything, I can just do what I do and see where everything falls. Let’s release that need to struggle and push and worry about where we end up. So pick up your pebble, and let’s do this together:

I can let go.

Take a deep breath.

Place your rock under the painting. Say silently:

I release any brain patterning,

subconscious or conscious thought,

or energetic resonance to the

idea that I need to struggle

To have the life I want. I am divinely

Guided. I can just let go and be free.

I am always divinely guided and free.